Reverence [ii]: Camila + Cobain

[source][more chilean solidarity]

[source][more chilean solidarity]

[source][more chilean solidarity]

[source][more chilean solidarity]

*About REVERENCE: Posts labeled with reverence are photographs or images of people the resident of the carcosite admires like a fangurl. Entries such as this shall have no caption or labels, besides this caption that shall blankly describe what REVERENCE is. So blank that all you can do is wander via google about the featured entity and wonder. Well, this is, simply, a facade for fangurling; and an attempt to pretend that the label REVERENCE means something. Yes, hollow words, I know. Good day. By the way, there is a good chance that I am preparing or planning some sort of (private) hagiography for revered entities featured herein.*

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PS. I wanted to explain, to put up some sorta disclaimer, but, no, I shall not.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 05

succubus [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 02 [?] days na lang, samhain na. fuck this, i failed at my own challenge. fuck this procrastinating all the fucking time i'm fucking pissed.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 06

seahorse [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 02 [?] days na lang, samhain na. fuck this, i failed at my own challenge. fuck this procrastinating all the fucking time i'm fucking pissed.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 07

stallion [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 02 [?] days na lang, samhain na. fuck this, i failed at my own challenge. fuck this procrastinating all the fucking time i'm fucking pissed.]

SAMHAIN 08 + FREE PRESS

this is the last symphony entry for this samhain thing. and, let this last symphony post shamelessly plug a storm advisory. yes, that's what it is. a sort of a prose poetry thing. a storm advisory (dd/mm/yyyy) at the philippines free press. the site was down a couple of days ago, but now the storm advisory is [here]. and, [here] is an article in the UP newsletter about one of the actual storms--which is not storm enough compared with the FQS, of course, but still, a good agitating jumpstart: the University of the Philippines STRIKE versus education and basic social services.

symphony [vi]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 08 days na lang, samhain na. haha, naalala ko ang 1024. tas day of the baphomets. tas apocalypse. hindi yan random. lahat ng bagay e magkakaugnay.]

dalwalanghiyang shameless plugs, trumpetting, hooray, good day.

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symphony [v]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 09 days na lang, samhain na. btw, kasalukuyang nilulusaw ng salimbayan ng 9th doctor at live performances ng the mars volta ang utak ko at sana makapagsulat pa ko neto mamaya! apir!]

something i think is unrelated but i think is beautiful:

something i think is unrelated and kind of wicked and wasak:

something i think is new and sweet and something for someone:

how beautiful esp after yesterday's insults and violence and callousness.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 10

symphony [iv]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 10 days na lang, samhain na.]

shit, wasak, bat ngayon ko lang nakita tong black fire upon us!?

at, andami pa palang "official vids"?! for newly grads:

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symphony [iii]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 11 days na lang, samhain na.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 12

symphony [ii]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 12 days na lang, samhain na.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 13

symphony [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 13 days na lang, samhain na.]

the previous days have been a motherfucker in their own little ways. however, those same days have their sweet ways of making up to screwing me over. yesterday, was no internet connection day. which turned out fine and productive as i already have entries for this countdown til the week ends. and today, i start the symphony series and temporarily end zdzislawing.

here's another happy thing---despite those cold shoulders that i believed and thought were shrugging me off like i'm some sort of a contagious std and this fucking up of gehenna, my laptop, which is being a whore at this very moment, the screen freezing like shit and system lagging like fuck, at least---the carcosite went beyond 5 thousand hits. (kinginang despite yan. simply put: i felt alone. yak.)

it hasn't even been a year and samhain is just around the corner. superficial as it may seem, i am glad as well because blog stats indicate that some sort of entity googled me and the shit i've translated. that, say, generosity to some extent neutralized, not the people i hate, but my self-loathing that devours me, with, of course, my permission. at least someone seeks me, after all. whoever the devil that is (or perhaps a legion comprising one or more entities?), thank you. i sound like a douche right now, right? apologies. i just felt, kind of, overwhelmed. anyway,

this 13th is sweet. i think that shall be all. i've left nothing unsaid for now i suppose (yet a lot left undone. sigh.). thank you for dropping by. (ay, sinecondthought ako, di kaya intel o something yung nagugoogle at nag-loiter sa aking blog? kunsakali ngang naniktik lang siya o sila, sana nakapulutan nyang aral!)

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 14

zdzislawed [vi]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 14 days na lang, samhain na.]

btw, i'd like to credit chet zar & cam de leon as well, for the zdzislawed series. "Once sin against God was the greatest sin; but God died, and with him these sinners. To sin against the earth is now the most terrible sin, and to revere the entrails of the unknowable higher than the meaning of the earth!" -Nietzsche

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 15

zdzislawed [v]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 15 days na lang, samhain na.]

ugh. drought. i hate this drought. "each virtue is jealous of every other, and jealousy is a dreadful thing. even virtues can perish of jealousy. he whom the flames of jealousy surround, at last, like the scorpion, turns the poisoned sting against himself. ah! my brother, have you never seen a virtue slander and stab itself? man is something that must be overcome: and therefore shall you love your virtues, - for you will perish by them.- thus spoke Zarathustra." -Nietzsche

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skinned street bull somehow gives a shit [i][ii][iii]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 17-16 days na lang, samhain na.]

yes, this is about wall street being occupied. and, yes, this is my entry for the weekend. andaya? hindi, a. tatlong drawing nga yan, e ano. salamat sa pagbisita.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 18

zdzislawed [iv]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 18 days na lang, samhain na.]

this was [re]created earlier this week. incidentally, three recent deaths in the academe. one student from u.p.l.b. another, an employee, from u.p.d. and another, a v.p, from p.u.p. and, of course, daily deaths of nameless people by hook or by crook.

[news: "uplb condems rape-slay;" "police nabbed one of two suspects."] and, yes, implicitly, uplb [admin, ovcca] seemingly blames the victim. alarming this face-saving, this hypocrisy. [fb note - link to Sir Gene Naverra's "Senseless"]

nay. not an ounce of grace was given. how sick this world is.

still, the recent Given Grace incident in uplb gives me the goosebumps, creeps that pulsate with outrage, with that feeling in the gut that makes me want to throw up on the faces, not just of the culprits, those indignant inhuman creatures, but on those of the negligent authorities' as well--with the hope that my barf turns toxic and corrosive upon exit from my mouth as to reduce the physical manifestation of the aforementioned assholes, those lame excuses for human beings, into nonexistence. btw, weeks ago, surigao was raped and was avenged. just saying.

justice for given. one may forgive, but never forget. culprits shall never go unpunished. end the culture of impunity. death to all figurative and literal rapists. same goes to the masterminds and the henchmen behind the maguindanao massacre among other massacres--including the massive 24/7 massacre perpetrated by this government against its supposed "boss," the people.

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zdzislawed [iii] / synagogue [ii]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 19 days na lang, samhain na.]

"(...) These people still dream about alternatives, so you have to prohibit this dreaming. Here, we don’t need a prohibition because the ruling system has even oppressed our capacity to dream. Look at the movies that we see all the time. It’s easy to imagine the end of the world. An asteroid destroying all life and so on. But you cannot imagine the end of capitalism." -Slavoj Zizek, at the Occupy Wall Street protest.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 20

state u? [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 20 days na lang, samhain na.]

or national u? deteriorating like the 'zdzislaweds,' esp this, err, chairperson.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 21

sepulture [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 21 days na lang, samhain na.]

failed to encode what i've written for you. i hope this will do. let me keep the skeleton in our conjugal closet. yesterday was our day. it has been eight years.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 22

synagogue [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 22 days na lang, samhain na.]

if only places of worship were like this, i'd worship any god any time of the week.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 23

summoning [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 23 days na lang, samhain na.]

fuck this city. failed to watch the summoned draconaid meteor shower. wish i were in l.b, but were not. how i long for those clear starless skies with the vibrant, pretentious, full moon hanging out alone, overseeing everything--material or otherwise.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 24

zdzislawed [ii]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 24 days na lang, samhain na. as promised sa self, |back> on track na sa pagbilang--at nagbabantang umadvance. sensya sa delay. giveaway na ang reference, btw.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 25

zdzislawed [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 24 days na lang, samhain na. sensya sa delay. popost ko yung next mayamaya. giveaway na ang reference, btw.]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 26

sacred mirrored [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 26 days na lang, samhain na.]

"in the country of the blind, the one-eyed man is king, and better yet, invisible." from disappearing by alan moore. yes, this one's title credits alex grey. i don't know if i did him any justice by ripping off his work. rushed the--no, not art--illustration. it is the thought that counts. anyway, i'd like to re-make [?] this, say, fan art in the near future. ugh. tired. tomorrow shall be another tiring day.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 27

school teacher's puppet

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 27 days na lang, samhain na.]

the southparkd drawing is an attempted steampunking. haven't learned grammer, mam and ser. kidding lang. advanced happy teachers' day. this post means i am not supposed to post anything tomorrow.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 28

shadow [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 28 days na lang, samhain na.]

cue: 46 & 2.

[update | this artwork was published at the monsters and the monstrous journal, may, 2012]

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 29

st. therese [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 29 days na lang, samhain na.]

let's celebrate the feast of st. therese, 29 days before samhain.

SAMHAIN COUNTDOWN 30

sagittarius [i]

[kelangan nang hamunin ang sarili at magsimula ng countdown at magdrawing ulet. hindi. hindi x days before xmas. samhain. 30 days na lang, samhain na.]

[m] is for mythical mechanical mother[f]ucker; [f], for fungi; [u], for yuggoth.

Spectacleshards [v]: Zizek's

Just so you know, Spectacleshards are excerpts. My sidecommentaries (yes, imbento! pumoportmanteau kuno!) are optional. Previously lifted excerpts from the writings of Italo Calvino, Robert Pirsig, Jorge Luis Borges and from the pages of Philippines Graphic. Like most things, I do this to fake productivity. This time, I am taking Slavoj Zizek's "joke" out of context by posting it here. I shall also include a facebook note about er.. love and activism, to somehow neutralize my taking of Zizek out of context, as a jocular attempt to make fun of machismo. And, this is not copypasted. I've just encoded the excerpt, so, if you have the book and you notice any error, typographical or whatnot, please do tell me.

A critical analysis of the present global constellation--one which offers no clear solution, no "practical" advice on what to do, and provides no light at the end of the tunnel, since one is well aware that this light might belong to a train crashing towards us--usually meets with reproach: "Do you mean we should do nothing? Just sit and wait?" One should gather the courage to answer: "YES, precisely that!" There are situations when the only truly "practical" thing to do is to resist the temptation to engage immediately and to "wait and see" by means of a patient critical analysis. Engagement seems to exert its pressure on us from all directions. In a well known passage from his Existentialism and Humanism, Sartre deployed the dilemma of a young man in France in 1942, torn between the duty to help his lone ill mother and the duty to enter the Resistance and fight the Germans; Sartre's point is, of course, that there is no a priori answer to this dilemma. The young man needs to make a decision grounded only in his own abyssal freedom and assume full responsibility for it. An obscene third way out of the dilemma would have been to advise the young man to tell his mother that he will join the Resistance, and to tell his Resistance friends that he will take care of his mother, while in reality, withdrawing to a secluded place and studying...

There is more than cheap cynicism in this advice. It brings to mind a well-known Soviet joke about Lenin. Under socialism, Lenin's advice to young people, his answer to what they should do was "Learn, learn, and learn." This was evoked at all times and displayed on all school walls. The joke goes: Marx, Engels, and Lenin are asked whether they would prefer to have a wife or a mistress. As expected, Marx, rather conservative in private matters, answers, "A wife!" while Engels, more of a bon vivant, opts for a mistress. To everyone's surprise, Lenin says, "I'd like to have both" Why? Is there a hidden stripe of decadent jouisseur behind his austere revolutionary image? No--he explains: "So that I can tell my wife that I am going to my mistress and my mistress that I have to be with my wife..." "And then, what do you do?" "I go to a solitary place to learn, learn, and learn!"

Is this not exactly what Lenin din after the catastrophe of 1914? He withdrew to a lonely place in Switzerland, where he "learned, learned and learned," reading Hegel's logic. And this is what we should do today when we find ourselves bombarded with mediatic images of violence. We need to learn, learn and learn what causes this violence.

That's from Zizek's Violence. Here's Ana Catalina Paje's viral (yes naman!) "Fall in love with an activist," [source] which is something I cannot relate to. I am just thoughtful enough to post this for people who may find this, er.. "cute." (yes, I'm acting cool. plus, I am asexual. and, I am petiburgis.) *copy*paste*a few edits that i hope does not change much of the text's essence*

Fall in love with an activist because...

You could have the worst hair day of your life, he wouldn't care...with his way of life, he's had worse. You won't need to take her to a fancy restaurant, fine dining was never her thing...she would rather eat with her hands in the company of farmers. You could shout at him all you want, he would just smile...he does it everyday..to assert for your rights.

She doesn't care if you're rich or poor. After all, she does understand class struggle. You can be frank about him, in fact, he would like that very much. Criticism and self-criticism are second nature to him. He always wants to improve himself. She isn't afraid to make the first move. Don't worry she's no bimbo. It's just that she believes in the equality of sexes. And she's knows that women hold half the sky. When you have a fight, it's never all your fault. He knows that partly, he was to blame. Because he is a dialectical materialist.

She's never boring. As long as social injustice and inequality exists, you won't run out of things to talk about. She's very good at sharing her life with someone. Maybe it has something to do with their practice of collective living. Being articulate is a skill he has come to master. And he will have no trouble telling you how much he loves you.

P.S. There's a catch. You should know that you're not the only person who owns his heart. You share it with the poor, the sick, the hungry, and the opressed.

P.P.S. By the time you fall for an activist, give it a week or so, you'll be an activist yourself. Because if you love and understand her, you would know it's the right thing to do.

That is all. Ugh, back to my desk. Toiling over.. whatever needs to be toiled over. Internet's being a motherfucker again and Gehenna is not cooperating either. Sighs.

(Pa-rant. Badtrip yung parang panginginig netong computer na di ko mapaliwanag. Andami tuloy typo kanina. Yung "to" naging "too," at iba pang nadodobleng letrang hindi naman dapat nadodoble and vice versa--at sobrang obyus na hindi dapat kaya nakakabwisit kasi hindi naman ako ganong ka-noob para hindi malaman ang difference ng "to" at "too," though oo, may grammatical lapses pa rin talaga paminsan, pero nakakainis na hindi ko maedit agad dahil sa pangmomotherfuckingina ng internet. Hindi ako galit. Ktnxbye.)