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a realization after every, er, after: the struggle for a better world, buying then consuming books, creating then selling books and updating a personal blog. these, er, things have something in common: i told my self a thousand times that this is the last mass action that i will attend, this is the last book i will buy or read because i have no space for new books, this is the last project i will release because i question the relevance of my creative or critical work and this is the last entry up my personal blog because who the fvck cares anyway and whoever gives that fvck i don't think i deserve will end up not giving a fvck after, in the belief that people in the same cirumstance/s that i am in shouldn't act this way, shouldn't think of how alone we all are in the end, really, or maybe i am the only one alone. yet, i continue with the struggle, consumption, production and publication of realizations such as this post. yet, i thank the comrades, customers, collaborators and spaces such as this to say things such as these that shall end in a manner so abrupt that