post-event post event

a realization after every, er, after: the struggle for a better world, buying then consuming books, creating then selling books and updating a personal blog. these, er, things have something in common: i told my self a thousand times that this is the last mass action that i will attend, this is the last book i will buy or read because i have no space for new books, this is the last project i will release because i question the relevance of my creative or critical work and this is the last entry up my personal blog because who the fvck cares anyway and whoever gives that fvck i don't think i deserve will end up not giving a fvck after, in the belief that people in the same cirumstance/s that i am in shouldn't act this way, shouldn't think of how alone we all are in the end, really, or maybe i am the only one alone. yet, i continue with the struggle, consumption, production and publication of realizations such as this post. yet, i thank the comrades, customers, collaborators and spaces such as this to say things such as these that shall end in a manner so abrupt that

being laibach through xeroxography, bltxv resched

due to glendamage, havoc wreaked by the weather disturbance, disturbing images and thoughts shall be brought to you by pseudocuments two, gastronomical visions, baby love, and nihil vers, as enumerated in a previous post, next saturday, july 26. same venue, same peers, pedantic pedestrians will also sell their stuff at my spot. see you there! also considering selling prints, related, or not, to nihil vers. if you can't make it tho, we can meet-up. the four aforementioned zines are ready. that is all for now, i thank you! update: dark chapel of ssm compiles event posters [here].

forthcoming: nihil vers: ode to deCo - art - app

as [aforementioned], here's the cover. get a copy

of  NIHIL VERSE: ode to deCo (Art + App) 

and other zines and stuff this july 19 at BLTXV

BLTXVOLTESV

tentative list of kalakal sa mesa: Pseudocuments Two: Files & Facts & Figures (2013) - P70; gastronomical visions (2013) - P70; Baby Love: Understanding Bestiality & Zoophilia (with Janine Dimaranan, 2014 pero tinatapos pa, TBA ang presyo!); NIHIL VERS: ode to deCo (Art. 1-3 + App. A & B) (2014 pero tinatapos pa, tinatapos pa, TBA ang presyo); stuff from Pedantic Pedestrians: Vandalisms w/ Citation (2014, TBA); Torture: A Manual (2014, TBA). BLTXV (Better Living Through Xeroxography 5), a small press expo / Uno Morato (Morato cor. E. Rodriguez, sa likod ng Sabroso Lechon) / 3 pm to sawa July 19 / takits

Leksyon ng Bomba

Leksyon ng Bomba
malayang salin ng sipi mula sa Ang Hari (The King) ni Donald Barthelme

Pero ipagpalagay mo ang lohika. Noong unang panahon, may layuning militar ang pambobomba o iba pa —paglusob sa looban ng riles, pagdurog sa mga pabrika ng kaaway, pagsara sa mga pantalan, mga gano'ng shit. Ngayon, hindi na gano'n. Ngayon, ginagawa ang pambobomba upang maging karanasang pang-edukasyon. Para sa mga binomba. Pedagohiya ang pambobomba. Sa bubungan, isang sibilyang may patpat ng puting posporus ang malalim na nag-iisip kung gaano katagal niya pang nais magpatuloy ang giyera.

mid-year accounting 2014

as [mentioned] in my very first post ever for this goddamn year, i intended to note progress, or lack thereof, hence this mid-year report

[discLab] re-published a slightly modified paper, "Intersecting Spaces: A General and The Supremo"in [one], [two], [three] parts (check later, at this very moment, the site seems inaccessible), the essay first appeared in [Salita ng Sandata]; "Pag-ibig ang Pulad ng mga Ulat", in [Transfiksyon: Mga Kathang In-transit]; and "Mikrokosmo" in [Like/Unlike: Kwentong Facebook Status at Politika ng Agam-agam]; article "Fortun, Forensics and the Yolanda Aftermath: Recovery, Storage, System Restore, Repeat" in UP Forum, and "Indigenous Research: Settle to Unsettle, Learn to Unlearn," forthcoming, same publication, will be out there in a week or two. six year taxabbatical apparently appeared as apparition in the slate 2014 planner. also, more [salungguhit]. also, cover image, poems and translations, [Pingkian] Journal for Emancipatory and Anti-imperialist Education, volume 2 number 2. and, last but not the least, was glad to be part of [kritika] 2014, presented a paper about Gerry Alanguilan's Elmer. that's all, repafolks. for now.

bilangan na ng araw

Pagbibilang
malayang salin ni Tilde Acuña
ng tula ni Philip Larkin

Madaling gawin
Ang pag-iisip nang nakabatay sa isa--
Isang silid, isang banig, isang silya,
Isang taong naririyan,
Makabuluhan; isang tungkos
Ng nais ang matutugunan,
Isang napunang ataul.

Ngunit mas mahirap gawin
Ang pagbibilang hanggang dalawa;
Dahil kailangang ikaila ang isa
Bago ito masubukan.

pieta, disappeared scholars, hostaged justice

in commemoration of the 8th year of the cadapan-empeno abduction

pieta (2013)

disappeared scholars, hostaged justice (2014)

note: i am also appending an article i wrote for the UP Forum (March-April 2012) Women's month issue, wherein i interviewed Nanay Linda; read the article after the cut.

Pamana at Pagkalinga ng mga Inang Makabayan

Tag-ani, Taong-mamamatay, Tagos

Hind ko tiyak kung saan galing ang sulsol na muling yumari ng tula at magsalin. Ang inisyal kong balak para sa blog na ito, ay ang pagpopost ng patalastas, i.e. progress (or lack thereof) report, mid-year carcasses, ganyan. Pero dahil hindi naman ako aktibong makalahok sa wasakan hinggil sa wika, wala naman ako sa posisyon, sa aba kong palagay, kaya baka ito ang naging labasan ko ng buntong hininga. May ilang haka-haka at kuru-kuro naman na ako rito, salamat sa paanyaya at sa paglalabas sa tekstong bopis, pero marami pa akong hindi mailagay sa kinalalagyan. Nagkaroon ng porum, may opinyon ang maraming tao at sa katunayan, medyo namangha ako sa pagiging popular ng isyu ng wika. Pero, hindi ko alam, ito siguro ang aking munting ambag, bukod pa sa pagdalo at pagiging odyens at reader ng mga porum at mga kolum: isang tula sa payak na porma, isang salin ng sipi ng nobela at isang salin ng tula ng hukbo:

decade's dead end

harvests aplenty, voices six feet under, violences and 

victories (thanks, undertow books! P1,000+ lang ito!)

it was the usual. it feels the usual. yet it is unique. 

another year has been. will assess 2013 the year after.